If these kilometers could speak
If they could understand the miles
If I could jump and fly over mountains
the way I do in my dreams
I tried to stay
I went back and forth
a few times, you know
and many more times in my head
and in my heart
to stay..
..close
and in a way I always did
so many years have gone by
since I left
but I still sit right beside you both
If there is a higher power
if there is a shield
if there is a rhyme and reason
to this colorful, cruel world
let him call me back again
raise his head and pull him up
I can feel the heaviness of these miles
of my own helplessness
like never before
what can I do from here
who can I call
who can hear my plea
who can see my tears
my heart on the ground
my cousin picking up the pieces
my mom rearranging them
putting them back together
as in a puzzle
when I left..
all those years ago
a hole opened up in my heart
I have been managing it
looking after it
trying to fill it
decorating it
at times it feels bigger, hollower and darker
I am still hoping it can reinvent itself
into a flower
or a bird
maybe a song
maybe I can sing through it
dance through it
paint with it
play piano with it
maybe I can talk to it
feel it in my chest
hear it in my voice
and one day
maybe one day
be at peace with it..
but not today.
